Movie review: Saving Private Ryan

That movie was INTENSE. I think at the end of it I will admit I was kind of shaking a little bit. Although that might be in part because I watched it before eating breakfast and you can get shaky if you haven't eaten recently. [edit: by the end of writing this post I'm not really shaking and I still haven't eaten anything so I guess we can ascribe the shaking to the intensity of the movie] In any case, whoa. It was quite something. It was... good, I suppose.. Not as in a feel-good movie though. I was clutching my metaphorical pearls towards the end of it (which literally was a blanket as I watched it in bed)

The beginning of the movie comprises a scene where soldiers are landing on a beach in France (presumably Normandy or something) during World War II. This part seems to last a long time which probably was on purpose to convey the fact that it also probably felt like an eternity to the soldiers who were there. There was also shaky camerawork here which was effective at conveying the certain sense of chaos that pervaded that occasion. The same shaky camerawork occurs in other action packed parts of the movie as well. There was a lot of carnage in this movie, definitely. Lots of people getting blown up and pieces of people getting blown off and blood spurting, etc. I wonder what goes into filming a war movie like this one to portray extreme violence and bloodshed without actually injuring or killing anyone. It must have been quite an undertaking. I was put off a bit definitely by all the carnage that filled this film and it made me realize that I like my death and destruction on an up close and personal level, rather than indiscriminate carnage - ie, Requiem for a Dream focuses on a few central characters about the topic of drug addiction.
Since the movie took place during WWII in France, there was a part where the captain, played by Tom Hanks (who looked rather young in this movie, but I guess that makes sense because it was made in the 90s.) was looking for a soldier who could translate between French, German and English for the titular mission of saving Private Ryan. It made me worry somewhat that some day I will be in a war and have to do that, although given the growing diversity of the US (which Trump would like to put a stop to) by the time I am theoretically in a war perhaps there will be native speakers available. At the moment, the only language I can be useful in is Spanish so if we ever have a war with Mexico or Spain or another Latin American country, then I'll worry about having to be a military translator. At the moment, the majority of wars have occurred in the Middle East and I don't know any Middle Eastern langauges like Arabic or Farsi or Urdu, so at present I would not be of use in any current military operations that are going on. But the theoretical possibility remains and it was not something that I had thought about until watching this movie, Which brings us to the subject of the soldier who happens to know French and German (with a slight Bavarian accent, according to him) and gets taken along with the captain on the search for the eponymous (I like that word) Private Ryan. His name was Upham and he was sort of naive and clumsy but to me it was endearing and the character was totally a Ben Whishaw type of character. I definitely could see Ben Whishaw as being in that role. Colin Morgan would work too; they both have the British and delicate woodland creature-esque appearance (as in, pale-ish skin tone, light eyes, slender figures, delicate facial appearance) that fits that role quite well. I wished for that character particularly not to get killed because he was endearing and reminded me of a role that Ben Whishaw might play. I wonder what actor that was - I'll have to look it up. I feel like his character, fragile as he was. definitely ended up with some kind of PTSD (which they probably did not know how to treat very well back then and even today the military is not really dealing with that in the most effective way so back then it must have been even worse) and was thrust into the hell of that after the war in addition to having to endure the horror(s - "The horror! The horror!") of war (assuming he didn't get killed later in the war), the poor dear.

This movie had some elements that reminded me of Full Metal Jacket. And some that reminded me of Apocalypse Now. I feel like maybe Full Metal Jacket has grown on me - at the very least it definitely has stuck with me. These three movies have different premises but they're all war movies. If I had to rank them, Apocalypse Now would be last and Saving Private Ryan would sort of edge out Full Metal Jacket. The element that reminded me of Apocalypse Now is the searching element - in Apocalypse Now they are going down a river in Vietnam in search of the man who later says "The horror! The horror!" and in Saving Private Ryan, the title pretty much says it all. The various scenes where soldiers in the group searching for Private Ryan got killed reminded me of scenes in Full Metal Jacket when soldiers got killed. Also there was the omnipresent rattling noises that war movies have - it's all the equipment that the soldiers are carrying around rattling as they move. I can't be the only person to have noticed that. If I had to be in a war, I think I would wish to be a sniper. I think the precision aspect of it is what appeals to me. There was a sniper in this movie who sort of reminded me (appearance-wise) of the German football player (or rather, Fußballspieler) Bastian Schweinsteiger who played for Bayern München. This movie also made me wish that I knew/were able to continue learning more German, even though WWII was against the Nazis and they were German, Today, the vast majority of Germans are not Nazis so as a country they have moved on from that. I wonder what it would be like to live in socialist (compared to the US) Europe, possibly in Germany or even Sweden. [that was a tangent]

From the first minutes of this movie (which was a frame story! Like The Catcher in the Rye and that's the only other example that comes to mind right now) which were rife with carnage, the message seemed to be that war is bad. (Requiem for a Dream - drugs are bad. Just think about how that movie ended up) Taken as a whole, there possibly is some other message present in Saving Private Ryan, perhaps something about brotherhood in the military but I don't know. I haven't given a deeper analysis of it much more thought. Matt Damon (as Private Ryan) had a facial cut in this movie, just one which surprised me a little bit because it being during a war I would have thought his face might have gotten a little more roughed up. In any case, the facial cut was about one inch long, not particularly severe, horizontal and slightly off center on his forehead. Not the most typical location for facial cuts, as evidenced in my last post. (I won't lie - I have been toying with the idea of self inflicting some strategically placed facial cuts on myself just to see how they would look. I feel like that would be easier and much more realistic than trying to make it look like I have facial cuts with makeup. The only thing holding me back is that it would probably be a little painful at least and also I would not like to have permanent facial scars from when I did an experiment with self inflicting facial cuts for aesthetic reasons. Although, in that one episode (1.12 "Seizure" if I'm correct) of Law and Order, Goren sliced open his hand with the pocket knife that he carries to prove a point about a suspect. Presumably they did not actually have Vincent cut open his hand (in the scene, the palm of his hand that he cuts is facing away from the camera as he slices it) but the concept still stands. And since I love detail, they were good about continuity with that because later in the episode he has a band-aid on his palm where he sliced it open. (who ever imagined that someone would feel compelled to write that much about one little minor thing that happens in an episode of Law and Order? The answer is, I would. I would feel compelled to write that.)

This movie made me wonder (this kind of goes along with the plot of Born on the 4th of July) if people who willingly enlisted in the military and then saw combat thought that their experience in the military was a positive one or a negative one. Or rather, were they (mentally) scarred by the horror(s) of war? Did it change their view on war in general and being in the military? I don't know anyone who has done this so I can't ask but it would be interesting to know. Because Saving Private Ryan was quite effective at depicting the horrors of war (Full Metal Jacket did this pretty well too, Apocalypse Now less so even though that kind of was supposed to be the point of it, hence the famous lines that I actually happened to write down on my English folder in addition to some other choice literary quotes and such). In Born on the 4th of July, Tom Cruise's character is quite eager to enlist and fight in Vietnam but what he witnesses/what happens there causes him to become an anti war activist. (he gets his back blown open and is left paralyzed) I guess it could depend on the particular nature of the experience, but I wonder about it. Certainly it's possible that some people in combat see less violence than others. How do they deal with it? (I'm sure there's stuff online about that kind of thing but I'm just thinking out loud here) Also, I think that being a police captain is a much more cushy job than being a military captain in WWII. The fictional Law and Order police captains (the ones I'm thinking about are Cragen [SVU] and Deakins [CI] who were good leaders and got along with the detectives under their command, unlike a later captain who was in CI) didn't get shot at on the regular. Even the detectives didn't, which is kind of interesting to think about. I think that it says that I like violence (that sounds kinda weird but bear with me) but only to a certain degree - the potential of violence (which is sometimes realized but not to a fatal extent, at least not to the main characters [them being the detectives in Law and Order]) but not severe indiscriminate carnage like in the movie, like I said earlier. I also wonder if the movie was based on a true story - I'll have to look that up too. It kind of reminded me of the book All Quiet on the Western Front, which was a good book that I read in the 10th grade for English. It was a powerful anti-war statement. The central theme of that book was that the characters featured in it were just dragged into the war (and were senselessly killed) and it was out of their control; they were fighting not because of any personal strong sense of patriotism, but because they had to. This idea does not necessarily transpose into the modern day American military because the military now is completely comprised of volunteers, but it was still a powerful message. I wonder if we'll ever have a draft again, in which case the message in AQOTWF could apply more aptly. If we do, all men between the ages of 18 and 25 must sign up or otherwise they may be fined (I don't remember the amount) or I think maybe even imprisoned. There are flyers that say this in the local post office and probably in your local post office too. Go see for yourself! If we do for whatever reason have a draft again, I would be sad if probably the only reader of this blog because I impose it on him got drafted and possibly killed in a war. If that happened, I would become an anti war protester like the hippies were for the Vietnam War. Thinking about the various war related things I've consumed, the conclusion that can be drawn from all of them is that war is bad, folks. In addition to the possibility of having a draft again, I wonder if world peace is really possible (certainly it would be ideal, but is it ever going to happen?). Which in turn is making me think of hippie anti-war music from the 60s like John Lennon's song Imagine and other songs like Blowing in the Wind and such. Ooh. Which in turn is making me think of more modern anti war music, like the song Soldier's Poem by Muse. It's a nice little song and not what you might expect (music wise) from Muse. And perhaps to some extent American Idiot can be put into this category as well, and Violet Hill by Coldplay. Ah. And the German 80s song 99 (neunundneunzig) Luftballons - which I know the words to in German which is a fact that I'm proud of that I can enjoy foreign music which some people (like my mother) cannot enjoy because they complain that they don't know what it means because it's in German (or some other language) and therefore don't like it.

Somewhat ironically this movie has kind of whetted my appetite to watch a series that James D'Arcy was in back in 2003. In that series, he played a British soldier (a pilot, maybe? I don't really remember) who was captured during WWII and was in a German POW camp and then escaped. I think there were 6 episodes or so, and I never watched the last two because it was a very suspenseful show and I just couldn't take it. But now I kind of want to watch it again all the way through. It was good, from what I remember, and also (shallowness alert) James D'Arcy looked good in it. Ah. He looked good. Very much so. James D'Arcy, everyone. My favorite actor. Still looks good after all these years. /shallowness

If I were to recast this movie with other (primarily British/European) actors, I would cast Daniel Craig in Tom Hanks' role and Ben Whishaw as the translator (or Colin Morgan, either one would work). For Private Ryan... James D'Arcy perhaps. I wanted to put him in there somewhere. Interestingly enough, around the same time that Saving Private Ryan was made. these three actors were in a war movie of their own, along with Cillian Murphy (pronounced with a hard c, like catastrophe, not like cereal). It was called The Trench and I watched it a couple years ago because it had these actors in it (sound familiar??). I barely remember anything at all that happened in it. It was set during WWI and mostly took place in the eponymous trench - they were all soldiers and Daniel Craig was superior to the other soldiers. The only thing I remember about the plot is there was one scene where Daniel Craig's character is sitting down and contemplating a jar of jam, which presumably his wife sent him. That's the only thing I remember of the plot. And also the end where they all emerge from the trench and charge towards the other trench and presumably all get killed.

A look at heart rate data from fitbit tells me that my heart rate went up (no surprises there) during the last 20 minutes or so of the film to 70 bpm and above, up to 82 at the highest. My usual resting heart rate is under 65, so there is hard evidence that this movie had an effect on me. [I started watching the movie around quarter past 7 in the morning and finished just a little before 10 am]

So, in conclusion, this is another war movie under my belt and I'm not sure if there are any others in the genre that I'd like to watch, Perhaps one that's set in a more recent war, but even then, I don't really think war movies are my thing. Again, I like my death and destruction up close and personal. Also, I was reading about forensic linguistics yesterday and I realized that with this post which I've spent over an hour writing, I'm giving the forensic linguists a lot of material to work with should they ever need to ascertain authorship of a writing to yours truly.
Also, regarding war movies and how I said I probably wasn't going to watch any more after seeing Apocalypse Now, but that I'd give this one a chance because it's said to be very good, I don't regret having watched it. It certainly was better than Apocalypse Now.

Facial cuts analysis

I do use apostrophes.

I read this article on Slate a couple months ago and thought it was interesting. It is about how in many of his movies, Tom Cruise has the same set of facial cuts located across the bridge of his nose and over his cheekbone. The presumable reason for this is that the location of the facial cuts positively emphasizes his bone structure and he also still needs to look appealing and not injured to the point where it's unsightly, but enough to show that he has gotten roughed up a little bit (thank you, commenter who mentioned that). Another commenter wondered if the same facial cuts were present in other movies with other actors and not just specific to Tom Cruise. So, I have decided to test this theory. The first movie that came to mind that would be likely for facial cuts to occur in was Casino Royale with the character of James Bond. So, I looked that up in google images and found this: Note the location of the facial cuts. We have similar locations - across the nose and on both cheekbones as well as some additional ones on the chin, lip and temples. 

Here is Brad Pitt (about whom I don't have particular strong or negative feelings) in the movie Se7en, which could have been better but aside from that, let's take a look at his (somewhat patched up) facial cuts. There is one across the nose and one over the eyebrow although not on a cheekbone. 

Here is James D'Arcy (ooh) in I'm not sure what (not Dot the i though), but he's got a facial cut. I couldn't think of anything right off the top of my head that he's been in where he would likely have facial cuts, but this came up when I searched his name. This time there is only one facial cut and it's right above the left eyebrow at the temple. (Also, in browsing through images of him, some of which are from 15 years ago or so and some of which are from more recently, he still looks good unlike some other actors. James has aged quite well. #shallow)

Here is Chris Meloni (I'm not sure if this is from SVU; it may be from Oz seeing he seems to be behind some bars ["In fact, he’d been terrified of the very notion of prison since, as a young boy, he accidentally watched HBO’s Oz, mistaking it for the classic Judy Garland musical." -Arrested Development]

There is a facial cut over his eyebrow and there seems to be another one on one of his collarbones. 

Here is another one (which is from SVU) where he has a cut over his eyebrow as well as some blood trickling down his arm. 

Here is Vincent D'Onofrio (this is not from Law and Order) looking rather weathered with a single facial cut across the cheekbone. Looks kind of painful. Perhaps that effect is also because of his somewhat morose expression. 

I was looking for an example using Leonardo DiCaprio, and haven't yet found one, but this does feature Leo albeit not with any facial cuts. Matt Damon however has some facial injuries although they aren't cuts and are more along the lines of a bloody nose. 

Here is Colin Morgan, a foreign actor who I have not watched very much of (I think only the film that this image is from) although I would not mind watching more of him. Here, he has a facial cut on the side of his face near his cheekbone and another one on the bottom lip, and it's hard to tell from this angle, but it seems like he might have one on the other cheekbone as well. He has an interesting face definitely and is sort of similar in appearance to Ben Whishaw. 

Here is male model Adrien Sahores (he is French and successful) walking in the SS13 Yohji Yamamoto show where the makeup theme was facial injuries. You can see that there is a crescent shaped cut right over his cheekbone.

Finally! I found one of Leonardo DiCaprio. I just remembered that in Romeo and Juliet (a cool movie) there was a part where his face was a bit bloody. So here it is, and there are two somewhat symmetrical cuts going vertically down his cheeks. 

I forgot that Mads Mikkelsen displayed some facial cuts in the Danish movie The Hunt (or in Danish, Jagten). Here they are - across the nose and one on the corner of his bottom lip.

Here is another one featuring Mads from Hannibal. The majority of the cuts are located on his lower cheek, one higher up on the cheekbone and one on his lower lip/chin.

Here is Australian actor Jesse Spencer in the show Chicago Fire (not House MD because I couldn't think of any times off the top of my head where his character would have gotten beaten about the face in that show, even if they might exist. I enjoyed him on House MD when I watched that because he had a nice Australian accent and nice eyeballs and hair. In Chicago Fire he plays an American firefighter with less hair and no Australian accent. [also, firefighter is intrinsically more macho than diagnostician] In this show his character's name is Casey which I think might be a last name (as was Chase in House MD) but either way I mostly think of the female [first name] Casey from SVU who was a district attorney.) Here the facial cuts are located on one side of his face and there are some on his temple, over his cheekbone and then lower on his cheek. There is also a small cut on the bridge of his nose. 

Here is Patrick Dempsey as Derek in the glamorized soap opera Grey's Anatomy. This is after his character was in a car accident. Most of one side of his face is covered in blood, but on the other side we can do some facial cut analysis. There is one over the bridge of his nose, then some around his eyeball on his orbital bone (I'm not even a doctor!) and then one on his cheek.

With that, I think we have enough examples for now although I do wish I had been able to find one of Vincent when he was younger and had facial cuts. He didn't get roughed up so much as his Law and Order character like Chris Meloni's character did. Anyways, here is a summary of findings! On the following diagram, I have added in MS Paint the locations of the facial cuts from all of these pictures. The more red there is, the more frequent there were facial cuts in that spot. Large bloody areas such as the one in the Patrick Dempsey picture are not included. It seems that from this sample, facial cuts are more commonly located on the left (viewer's perspective) side of the face. The cheekbones/cheeks are the most common locations for facial cuts as well as across the nose and around the temples. Now, the only question left is, if I acquire some strategically placed facial cuts, will it make me look more fetching?? 

All in all, this post was pretty enjoyable to put together because I got to gaze at some good looking actors in the process of it. I put a decent amount of effort into making this post, particularly the searching for example pictures. I hope the images load properly. 

Movie review: Requiem for a Dream

I finally got around to/was able to watch this movie which I've been wanting to watch for... at least a year. I noticed it was on Netflix so I watched it just earlier. It was not particularly long at only an hour and 41 minutes. 

It was different and I'm not sure what I was expecting other than the fact that I knew it was a movie about drug addicts. I thought it was a good movie and not a waste of time so at least it was better than Apocalypse Now. It had Jared Leto in it as one of the main characters and he looked rather young and pale and sallow. I always thought this movie had an interesting title - the word 'requiem' is cool and unusual and then coupled with the word 'dream' gives the title an air of... dreaminess. I also liked the title of the movie Dream with the Fishes. 
I liked the color in it - the colors and the cinematography were nice; the overall visual style/appearance of it I thought was pleasing. It was kind of bright in some scenes, and I can't really say there's a certain color palette for this movie like there is with the American version of The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, but nevertheless the colors and appearance of this movie were nice. 
In terms of content, we hit on all the various morbid topics that apparently fascinate me most. Drug addicts/addiction! Also a little bit of electroshock therapy in one scene and various other similar things... there was also an orgy in one scene which I don't find as fascinating as drug addiction, among other things. 
I thought the ending was sort of anticlimactic in a way, although on the other hand, it was fitting and perhaps the movie didn't exactly have the most linear, straightforward plot but it was still good and some movies are like that, to varying degrees of success. 
I'm glad that I finally got to see this movie because again, it had been one that I had wanted to see for quite a while. It was a little bit trippy in some ways but not overly so and overall a good movie. I wrote all this before reading what other people have said about the movie so the above is just my untainted thoughts. And now I will go on to read some stuff about the movie and see if I missed anything or if other people have any insights about it to offer.

I found something that claims it is #9 of the most disturbing movies. Personally, I'm not sure I'd say it was disturbing, but it was interesting. Also, after having watched it, I understand why there's an eyeball on the movie poster (no eye gouging in this movie, though) 
The definition of 'requiem' is: (especially in the Roman Catholic Church) a Mass for the repose of the souls of the dead.

• a musical composition setting parts of a requiem Mass, or of a similar character.
• an act or token of remembrance. (I assume this is the meaning used for the title of the movie)

I want to end this post with my quote: "Nobody plans on becoming a drug addict."
and: here is a page with some trivia about the movie
edit: I found an article in the Guardian where the author of the original book explains how he got inspired to write it. I like things like that. It's why I make the effort to explain (over explain?) the things I come up with on this blog rather than just leaving people to wonder since I wouldn't want to be left wondering. I also liked the note at the end of it: "Hubert Selby Jr does not use apostrophes." (he doesnt. Maybe one day I should try that.) 

If

If I happened to encounter eyelashes guy in public (it could theoretically possibly happen although it is unlikely but not completely impossible) here is a selection of things I think I would feel compelled to say to him. I'm aware that these would probably be weird things to say to him to at least some degree but regardless:
"I see you on tv, on CNN, and your eyelashes are magnificent. Wow, really, they're so long and luscious. You should get an award for best eyelashes. I noticed you on tv only because of your eyelashes but then that intrigued me so I decided to look more into your political opinion journalism and came to realize that you're intelligent and have things to say that are worth considering even though I'm not a conservative. I just really like your eyelashes. They're just great and spectacular. (Ad infinitum.)"
Again, like with previous posts on this subject, I really hope the topic of this post never comes across it or any of the previous ones. I would be aghast if he happened to read these things which I do realize are... out there. But imagine if theoretically he did somehow find my posts and read them and kept up with my blog to see if I'd written more about him. Yikes. That possibility is not something I want to become reality.

Someday perhaps I will find a new thing or person to frequently occupy my thoughts  but currently that person is eyelashes guy, hence all these endless ridiculous posts about him. I realize how... it's kind of a weird thing to be so... concerned with a political commentator who happens to have really nice eyelashes. But alas. That's how it is. In any case, the positive side of this is that I have become at least somewhat more open minded and have willfully exposed myself to differing opinions than my own, which I admittedly did not really do in the past.

The mysterious mansions

Outside my neighborhood, across the road that goes by it, there is a series of mansions. This is kind of odd, seeing as the neighborhood consists of regular sized single family homes and townhouses and some condos. And then, right outside the neighborhood are some mansions. From the road, you can see about 3 of them but I looked on Google maps satellite images and apparently there are 6 more that are father back from the road and therefore can't really be seen. I didn't know there were that many until I looked at Google maps. In any case, I was curious about how much these mansions costed. Apparently, the one that's closest to the road and therefore the easiest to see sold for a little over one million dollars 10 years ago. I assume the other mansions also went for a similar price. In any case, I'm very curious about the people who live in the mansions. I've never seen them, but there are cars parked outside so people do in fact live there. Also their large expanse of lawn grass is always mowed in a pattern like they do for baseball fields or golf courses. Presumably they pay someone to do that. If they were more immediate neighbors maybe I'd have seen them but they aren't so I have never seen these mysterious people. I kind of wish I had an excuse to go knock on their door and ask about what they're like since I'm very curious. People who live in mansions are a bit of a mystery to me intrinsically. I wonder what kinds of jobs they have in order to be able to afford a mansion. Although, they're probably less rich than some because if they were richer they'd have bought a mansion in the rich people neighborhood farther south. There, there are loads and loads of mansions, not just a few stuck across the road from a regular neighborhood. I feel like maybe the people who live in the mansions are kind of lonely and isolated because the majority of other houses within the vicinity are regular ones and therefore maybe the mansion owners feel like they can't relate too well to their not so immediate neighbors. They're too rich to have a regular house, but too poor to live in the rich people neighborhood where there would only be other mansions for miles and miles.
So I wonder about these people, because as it stands I have never ever seen them and know nothing about them. I assume it's a husband and wife who live there and maybe have children, but who knows. Maybe it's a husband and husband who own many cats. I have no idea.

Song review, sort of

So, because of the time of year, my mother has decided that we should listen to a country music radio station (... just realized I typed country. I meant Christmas.) in the car. Eh. I guess there are worse options. And apocalyptic music isn't exactly in the spirit of the holidays. In any case, the other day a song came on that I recognized but was sort of baffled as to why it was considered a Christmas song and therefore on the Christmas music radio station. The song was some version (not sure which one specifically) of Leonard Cohen's 'Hallelujah.' It's oddly catchy for a song that's so overtly about religious stuff, or at least seems to be. Some religious songs are rather pleasing to my ears even though I'm an atheist, which is... I don't know. Maybe it's like a devout Mormon/other denomination of Christianity but I just wanted to name drop Mormonism enjoying a kind of music that's considered subversive/unholy/I can't think of the adjective but I think there is one. So like death metal or something like that. Maybe that isn't the best example but whatever.
In any case, I had heard the song before, most recently when the lady on SNL had performed it after the election, at which time I realized it was a familiar song and that I had heard the song even before that, presumably/probably on Pandora back in the day when I used to listen to Pandora more often. It wouldn't be super surprising that such a song would have showed up; my stations mostly consisted of things based around Coldplay/The Fray/that type of mellow and usually on the depressing side of things music. 

In any case, despite the rather seemingly religious things/themes in the song, I feel like maybe it could be interpreted in a non religious way, or at the very list, a semi religious and also semi non religious way, even though it seems at the beginning to be rather cut and dry that it's a religious song. I haven't given it a ton of thought at the moment but perhaps in the future I'll develop that idea a little more. According to Wikipedia, it was used on House MD which I don't specifically remember but it would make sense; House MD always had interesting music over some of the scenes. One song that particularly stuck with me was "I Still Care For You" in... I don't remember the episode name, alas. It actually is kind of similar. Also, in the episode (which was one of the first that I watched, I think) Both Sides Now, over the last few scenes there is a cover of the song As Tears Go By which also stuck with me in that it was an interesting and nice song. 

Also, while writing this post I was listening to the song and now I think it's going to be stuck in my head. Alas. I'm not sure if it's better or worse than having Last Christmas stuck in my head, which I also heard on this Christmas music radio station. Which, incidentally, I did not know until I looked it up that the guy who sang/wrote that song is the singer George Michael, which is relevant because I have been watching Arrested Development in which the main character's son is named George Michael (Bluth).  

Online dating

At the moment, I just took a sip of orange soda and I FELT it falling down my throat and inside my innards. It was kind of weird; I felt it more acutely than I think I usually feel things when I drink. In any case, that is not the main topic of this post.

The main topic is the online dating website. My pattern of usage has seemed to fall into a cycle of abandoning it for a month or so, then something piques my interest and I use it again for maybe a week or two, and then I abandon it again. And so on. I think, at this point, it's more of a source of entertainment/boredom busting for me rather than an actual way for me to find someone who I would be interested in dating. Basically, it's kind of a slightly more enhanced (in that you can read people's profiles and such rather than just observing a person out in public) online form of people watching with occasional conversations. Which is... not bad, but not the site's intended purpose. But alas, the vast majority of people on there are too ugly and/or boring for me to consider dating. Yes, I understand that makes me shallow. Oh well. At this point, I feel like the chances of me finding someone who is a) not ugly and b) interesting to talk to and someone who I would actually want to spend time with is rather low and is about the same chance that I have of seducing a certain not ugly person who I know of but have basically never spoken to with my knowledge of serial killers, which I will admit is probably zero. Alas. Such is life. At this rate, I think would have better luck jetting off to Europe and learning rudimentary French so that I can attempt to seduce models during fashion week. At least they wouldn't be ugly. 

I wonder if the message "Wow, there are not a lot of people on this website who are as good looking as you are" would be a good one in the occasion that I do find someone who is not ugly and also at least decently interesting. I feel like it might stroke the person's ego too much in a bad way, even if it might happen to be true.