My (Rachel, a future staving linguist and/or journalist) personal blog and part-time unofficial Peter Sarsgaard fansite. This is a blog about, really, a ton of random ramblings of mine. This blog's posts usually cover "a... unique topic" according to one reader.. Maybe it's more of an online journal of mine. Sometimes I write about music, movies, and tv, in addition to whatever else comes to mind that I deem worthy to write about. Have fun (hopefully) reading it!
Monday, December 26, 2016
Facial cuts analysis
Sunday, December 25, 2016
Movie review: Requiem for a Dream
It was different and I'm not sure what I was expecting other than the fact that I knew it was a movie about drug addicts. I thought it was a good movie and not a waste of time so at least it was better than Apocalypse Now. It had Jared Leto in it as one of the main characters and he looked rather young and pale and sallow. I always thought this movie had an interesting title - the word 'requiem' is cool and unusual and then coupled with the word 'dream' gives the title an air of... dreaminess. I also liked the title of the movie Dream with the Fishes.
I liked the color in it - the colors and the cinematography were nice; the overall visual style/appearance of it I thought was pleasing. It was kind of bright in some scenes, and I can't really say there's a certain color palette for this movie like there is with the American version of The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, but nevertheless the colors and appearance of this movie were nice.
In terms of content, we hit on all the various morbid topics that apparently fascinate me most. Drug addicts/addiction! Also a little bit of electroshock therapy in one scene and various other similar things... there was also an orgy in one scene which I don't find as fascinating as drug addiction, among other things.
I thought the ending was sort of anticlimactic in a way, although on the other hand, it was fitting and perhaps the movie didn't exactly have the most linear, straightforward plot but it was still good and some movies are like that, to varying degrees of success.
I'm glad that I finally got to see this movie because again, it had been one that I had wanted to see for quite a while. It was a little bit trippy in some ways but not overly so and overall a good movie. I wrote all this before reading what other people have said about the movie so the above is just my untainted thoughts. And now I will go on to read some stuff about the movie and see if I missed anything or if other people have any insights about it to offer.
I found something that claims it is #9 of the most disturbing movies. Personally, I'm not sure I'd say it was disturbing, but it was interesting. Also, after having watched it, I understand why there's an eyeball on the movie poster (no eye gouging in this movie, though)
The definition of 'requiem' is: (especially in the Roman Catholic Church) a Mass for the repose of the souls of the dead.
- a musical composition setting parts of a requiem Mass, or of a similar character.
- an act or token of remembrance. (I assume this is the meaning used for the title of the movie)
and: here is a page with some trivia about the movie
edit: I found an article in the Guardian where the author of the original book explains how he got inspired to write it. I like things like that. It's why I make the effort to explain (over explain?) the things I come up with on this blog rather than just leaving people to wonder since I wouldn't want to be left wondering. I also liked the note at the end of it: "Hubert Selby Jr does not use apostrophes." (he doesnt. Maybe one day I should try that.)
Wednesday, December 21, 2016
If
If I happened to encounter eyelashes guy in public (it could theoretically possibly happen although it is unlikely but not completely impossible) here is a selection of things I think I would feel compelled to say to him. I'm aware that these would probably be weird things to say to him to at least some degree but regardless:
"I see you on tv, on CNN, and your eyelashes are magnificent. Wow, really, they're so long and luscious. You should get an award for best eyelashes. I noticed you on tv only because of your eyelashes but then that intrigued me so I decided to look more into your political opinion journalism and came to realize that you're intelligent and have things to say that are worth considering even though I'm not a conservative. I just really like your eyelashes. They're just great and spectacular. (Ad infinitum.)"
Again, like with previous posts on this subject, I really hope the topic of this post never comes across it or any of the previous ones. I would be aghast if he happened to read these things which I do realize are... out there. But imagine if theoretically he did somehow find my posts and read them and kept up with my blog to see if I'd written more about him. Yikes. That possibility is not something I want to become reality.
Someday perhaps I will find a new thing or person to frequently occupy my thoughts but currently that person is eyelashes guy, hence all these endless ridiculous posts about him. I realize how... it's kind of a weird thing to be so... concerned with a political commentator who happens to have really nice eyelashes. But alas. That's how it is. In any case, the positive side of this is that I have become at least somewhat more open minded and have willfully exposed myself to differing opinions than my own, which I admittedly did not really do in the past.
Friday, December 16, 2016
The mysterious mansions
Outside my neighborhood, across the road that goes by it, there is a series of mansions. This is kind of odd, seeing as the neighborhood consists of regular sized single family homes and townhouses and some condos. And then, right outside the neighborhood are some mansions. From the road, you can see about 3 of them but I looked on Google maps satellite images and apparently there are 6 more that are father back from the road and therefore can't really be seen. I didn't know there were that many until I looked at Google maps. In any case, I was curious about how much these mansions costed. Apparently, the one that's closest to the road and therefore the easiest to see sold for a little over one million dollars 10 years ago. I assume the other mansions also went for a similar price. In any case, I'm very curious about the people who live in the mansions. I've never seen them, but there are cars parked outside so people do in fact live there. Also their large expanse of lawn grass is always mowed in a pattern like they do for baseball fields or golf courses. Presumably they pay someone to do that. If they were more immediate neighbors maybe I'd have seen them but they aren't so I have never seen these mysterious people. I kind of wish I had an excuse to go knock on their door and ask about what they're like since I'm very curious. People who live in mansions are a bit of a mystery to me intrinsically. I wonder what kinds of jobs they have in order to be able to afford a mansion. Although, they're probably less rich than some because if they were richer they'd have bought a mansion in the rich people neighborhood farther south. There, there are loads and loads of mansions, not just a few stuck across the road from a regular neighborhood. I feel like maybe the people who live in the mansions are kind of lonely and isolated because the majority of other houses within the vicinity are regular ones and therefore maybe the mansion owners feel like they can't relate too well to their not so immediate neighbors. They're too rich to have a regular house, but too poor to live in the rich people neighborhood where there would only be other mansions for miles and miles.
So I wonder about these people, because as it stands I have never ever seen them and know nothing about them. I assume it's a husband and wife who live there and maybe have children, but who knows. Maybe it's a husband and husband who own many cats. I have no idea.
Tuesday, December 13, 2016
Song review, sort of
In any case, I had heard the song before, most recently when the lady on SNL had performed it after the election, at which time I realized it was a familiar song and that I had heard the song even before that, presumably/probably on Pandora back in the day when I used to listen to Pandora more often. It wouldn't be super surprising that such a song would have showed up; my stations mostly consisted of things based around Coldplay/The Fray/that type of mellow and usually on the depressing side of things music.
In any case, despite the rather seemingly religious things/themes in the song, I feel like maybe it could be interpreted in a non religious way, or at the very list, a semi religious and also semi non religious way, even though it seems at the beginning to be rather cut and dry that it's a religious song. I haven't given it a ton of thought at the moment but perhaps in the future I'll develop that idea a little more. According to Wikipedia, it was used on House MD which I don't specifically remember but it would make sense; House MD always had interesting music over some of the scenes. One song that particularly stuck with me was "I Still Care For You" in... I don't remember the episode name, alas. It actually is kind of similar. Also, in the episode (which was one of the first that I watched, I think) Both Sides Now, over the last few scenes there is a cover of the song As Tears Go By which also stuck with me in that it was an interesting and nice song.
Also, while writing this post I was listening to the song and now I think it's going to be stuck in my head. Alas. I'm not sure if it's better or worse than having Last Christmas stuck in my head, which I also heard on this Christmas music radio station. Which, incidentally, I did not know until I looked it up that the guy who sang/wrote that song is the singer George Michael, which is relevant because I have been watching Arrested Development in which the main character's son is named George Michael (Bluth).
Online dating
The main topic is the online dating website. My pattern of usage has seemed to fall into a cycle of abandoning it for a month or so, then something piques my interest and I use it again for maybe a week or two, and then I abandon it again. And so on. I think, at this point, it's more of a source of entertainment/boredom busting for me rather than an actual way for me to find someone who I would be interested in dating. Basically, it's kind of a slightly more enhanced (in that you can read people's profiles and such rather than just observing a person out in public) online form of people watching with occasional conversations. Which is... not bad, but not the site's intended purpose. But alas, the vast majority of people on there are too ugly and/or boring for me to consider dating. Yes, I understand that makes me shallow. Oh well. At this point, I feel like the chances of me finding someone who is a) not ugly and b) interesting to talk to and someone who I would actually want to spend time with is rather low and is about the same chance that I have of seducing a certain not ugly person who I know of but have basically never spoken to with my knowledge of serial killers, which I will admit is probably zero. Alas. Such is life. At this rate, I think would have better luck jetting off to Europe and learning rudimentary French so that I can attempt to seduce models during fashion week. At least they wouldn't be ugly.
I wonder if the message "Wow, there are not a lot of people on this website who are as good looking as you are" would be a good one in the occasion that I do find someone who is not ugly and also at least decently interesting. I feel like it might stroke the person's ego too much in a bad way, even if it might happen to be true.






